It's been sometime since I have paid attention to this blog, probably because I have been busy with other forms of social media, and have been mainly posting via mobile, which can be difficult for something longer than a paragraph. Perhaps I have been a bit lazy in this manner (and impatient with using an old, oftentimes-lagging desktop with Windows XP OS). And yet I realize that this is actually the social media form that is closest to my heart as it is nearest to pen and paper and ideas alone in my room... I once upon a time answered a panel interview that if I had not been pursuing a field of science, I would have been a writer, a poet actually, and I do dabble with poetry online as well... Then the only time I had the courage to apply to the school paper staff in high school, the adviser put me as literary editor (which was my dream position that time). To make a long story short, I have had a long term relationship with words which I could not leave off just because I am now in practice in the highly technical field of diagnostic radiology.


Perhaps this is the time to begin blogging regularly again. There are endless possibilities with this medium of communication, and at the same time I find it a highly enjoyable hobby.


A few weeks back, I was in a closed retreat with no access to the internet whatsoever. In that time of intense prayer with God, I remember thinking of what more I can do with my inclination to be tech-savvy (it comes with an orientation of working with medical imaging equipment all the time) and to be online more often than not to connect with people, keep in touch, exchange views... This is definitely part of the New Evangelization that is asked of me! 


Thus, I resolve to make at least a bi-monthly substantial post (excluding the poetry on the other blog) on different topics of interest.


Nunc coepi! Now, I begin again! 

To all clinicians, especially internists and pulmonologists: We radiologists would appreciate it if you do not insist that we read single ancillary views of the chest (lateral, lordotic and decubitus views) without looking at a recent PA or AP view, if you want us to render the best standard of care for your patients.

You would not want a detective to solve a crime without examining all the clues, would you?

The recent past has held its share of painful memories. Yet I owe it to myself to transcend it. Sometimes, it amazes me how people believe that I have yet to move on and continue to misinterpret even comments on my own Facebook page.

Oh yet more things to offer up for love of God!

And I do know that I am only accountable to God in the end, not anyone else.

At several points in my life, I have had my share of rejections, rebuffs, even - believe it or not- an attempt to get signatures to get rid of me.

Somehow, I find myself wondering if never having to face such circumstances would have been better...

It's true that I would have been spared the pain, the fears, the anxiety, yet at the cost of missed chances to show that I can change, I can be brave, I can rise to the occasion.

Would it have been better otherwise? ... Not at all!

"Omnia in bonum."

While waiting for the results of my third and last Philipine Board of Radiology examinations, I have been thinking of a post for my long-neglected blog. At this point of my life, I could think of no better post than to explain why I am a Roman Catholic, who happens to be a medical doctor. I definitely was baptized 25 years before I passed the medical board exams and became serious in living my faith a couple of years before I stepped into a secular medical school.

I still find it disheartening that many of my colleagues think "Ethics is relative" (believe it or not, the one who said this actually is a member of a Catholic charismatic group) or declare in public that one uses oral contraception herself (at the same time she used to be a lector and name-drops members of the team of pastors at my parish) or is thinking of going into the ethically questionable subspecialty of mainstream reproductive endocrinology and thinks teaching only Natural Family Planning to indigents is impossible (said OB-GYN is also member of a Catholic charismatic group) or be in a mandated parish organization while being riled up that the sterilization census at the OB-GYN department in a local government hospital one heads is at an all-time low.... I could go on and on with a list of people with this one question in mind---Why do you leave your Catholicism outside the door when confronted with professional and personal decisions? And yes, it can get so ignorant and bad as the above lector stating "for the success of the in-vitro procedure of..." as one of the Mass intentions. This sort of compartmentalization of personal, professionsal and religious spheres of one's life into different nooks and cranies has to stop!

I for one cannot understand why people who spend years working on their profession cannot take the time to study and give importance to their own doctrinal-spiritual growth which should be evem more important than their professional formation. When I met and eventually joined Opus Dei, I learned that this was also an important aspect of one's life-long formation. Right next to my medical books, I also read the Catechism of the Catholic Church, a medical ethics book by a priest who used to work as a medical doctor, and read encyclicals such as Humanae Vitae and Evangelium Vitae. I took the time to attend classes and talks on marriage, chastity, sexuality and ethics. I spent time studying up on issues related to my profession as well. I accepted as my own and made the effort to defend the Church's stand on life issues.

My being a future radiologist is not the most important thing. Being a Roman Catholic and trying to live faithful to the teachings of the Magisterium comes first.

There is something about change, about several possibilities open to you that can be frightening. That's the reason why these upcoming exams seem to appear so overwhelming, even if I'm sure that passing is not the end all and be all of my professional career...

And then there are realizations pointed out to you that make you second guess what you have thought that you have gotten figured out for years. It seems like you might never have belonged from the start, and all the effort was at a loss right from the beginning...

And thus one reaches the crossroads...

What path do I take now? Where is this road about to lead me?

A day at a time... Taking a step at a time...